#your state of constant anxiety is rly hot

[toraoistired]

Happiest of birthdays to the gloomiest little autistic princess in all the land

[freigaeist]

also a random question but - favourite ship, if you have one?

ANJA

VMON ; the fashionistas, the earth signs, the teacher and his student, the refreshingly buzz of wild thoughts swirling through the organized mind whAT IS NOT TO LOVE ABOUT VMON!!! i can’t even say what is the most adorable abt those two but i think i’m drawn to how surprisingly similar they are but also how utterly different? whilst they’re both care-taker namjoon is the mental support, he’s incredibly good with words and verbal reassurance whereas taehyung can make anybody feel at ease with just a smile or a hand on the shoulder. whilst the older is gifted with just the right words in any situation the younger has that feeling to him that puts others at ease immediately; like a puppy you pet and feel better though it’s a small creature that needs you to take care of them and guide them you feel oddly accepted, protected, loved and taken care of by a huge grin, lots of spit and scratch marks on your hands and the feeling of their fur underneath your trembling fingers and that is taehyung. namjoon on the other hand is the words of an elder, a friend, a mother that do more than every physical support could do for you at that very moment. namjoon is the voice reading you a bedtime story that lulls you to sleep from very far away while taehyung is the bass soothingly vibrating beneath your head whilst being pressed close to his warm body. i imagine namjoons fingers are always kinda cold and at their best luke warm or hot and sweaty and taehyung seem to be always very warm and dry. namjoon get headaches from worrying too much and nibbling on his inner cheek in thoughts, taehyung has already moved from the foggy slumber of the past, got rid of the muddy finger prints on his white vest and is with one foot already in the newly fallen snow of the future, in his chest already bubbling excitement and aticipitation. vmon are the lecturing but kind words of an older person guiding and the younger reaching out and holding them in their steady embrace for a while knowing that even the wisest and oldest need nothing but a hug and a thankful smile from time to time.

so vmon is like the Ship of the Month but c’mon we all know bea HAS to have sidehoes (Me, A triple-biased Ship Wreck, ) so i’ll go in detail abt the others too fuck it why not:

JinMin ; ah yes sag+libra, they’re the kinds of sweets that look innocent and taste sweet and nice on first bite before some nasty kind of lemon STINGS into your tongue and you reconsider ever eating candy again bc how dare the sugar&sweets industry foaling you like this??? jinmin is this; effing libra park jimin being the cutest but also the most cunning out there, he KNOWS how to act and how to behave to have people liking him - but that doesn’t work when the person he’s trying to lull in acts like an actual 5y/o that just. isn’t having it. nopedy nop nope. this bangtan bomb is still everything to me bc i think their individual relationship comes out wonderfully as well as this vlive - truth be told both are reasons why my life improved 10% overall am not kidding. seokjin is the bigger brother chim never had and jimin the younger jin never had i think their sense of humour is rly similar (name one time when jimin pressured himself NOT to laugh at jins antics!), they’re the Gossip Girls out of these bunch of boyscouts and i love them for that! whenever one of them is whispering into the others ear it looks extra shady if you ask me &I LOVE IT! jimin sometimes looks so extra Done with Jin and he just continues going on his nerves like it’s a water slide &I LVOE IT! i also love how seokjin is older but let’s jimin (and everybody else) just have their ways from time to time, he isn’t too serious when he doesn’t needs to be and i think that puts the others at ease. they’re also Team Touchy though i’d say jimin is more of the physical support than jin bc jimin isn’t one to be all sappy with words but rather shows his concern and that he senses someone’s upset with simple, reassuring gestrues. he doesn’t play around like jin does when he’s bored or is all clingy and is glued to people like taehyung but he got his ways in immediately being close and having a hand on ones shoulder when they’re worried and i actually think jin learned a bit from chim when it comes to this? i mean yes he’s The (so claimed) Mom but he isn’t overly touchy but with the youngsters he is and i find that rly cute! they’re on one wave and the wave’s wild and high enough to happily sail on it :’^) i also read this lovely yet absolute heart-breaking (in the possibly best way) masterpiece and fell in love instantely

others i’m all HEART EYES for

Sope ; who isn’t in love with yoonseok. honestly. the pisces boy and his water bearer. when yoongi’s the deep dark water growing heavy and deadly hoseok is lightning buzzing through the halfway frozen surface, cracking ice and bringing light into the darkness which the water reflects in every direction to light it up. when hobi is all twitching nerves and fluid anxiety (and he’s all nerves to me; even when he’s talking in a quiet/low voice to calm ppl he’s talking incredibly FAST and his voice literally dances up&down he is just. A BUNDLE OF NERVES HE’S SUCH AN AQUARIAN) yoongi is reassuring deepness and calm and when yoongi’s depressed and without any motivation and everything and everyone is choking him to death and he feels like drowing hoseok is his light, oxygen and soul food. they’ve that super healthy relationship where they magically balance their downsides out smh?? that’s how i see them. they’re offering what the other is lacking and by that make a very strong unit. plus yoongi is really straight-forward and honest but he’s not one who’s all lovey dovey and shows how much he cares too obvious BUT WITH HOB HE IS EXACTLY THAT!!! i just rly love them but then again, who doesn’t?

Taejin ; Team Agegap - mhh both have a similar but different feeling to me but it’s all pure. they let jin be the child and are sUPER ANNOYED BY HIM sometimes when he wants to play around and they don’t want to! Seokjin is absolutely in love with taehyung (but then again who isn’t) and they can gET INCREDIBLY TOUCHY (possesive bf Tae at it everywhere, their mama stage??) with each another! plus the one and only thing i ever wrote is taejin lol for jinkook, i love that seokjin has that ability to lower himself. he’s the oldest and jeongguk the youngest yet i think they’re very close in the sense that jin is lowering himself and jeongguk likes to play the know-it-better& mess with his oldest hyung at times so they’re almost equal (plus team muscle pigs yay). these three are a bunch of pre-schoolers i wouldn’t want to take care of (am kidding pls pls let me play around with them!)

Double Wings ; Smol & Tol - namjin were the first that got me into reading bts fanfics (our sometimes tired, sometimes overly enthusiastic but 90% of the time emBARRASSING parents who gave the word Awkward its meaning (not bc they’re awkward with each other hell they’ve one of the best relationships you can have with someone who you’re not similar to in lots of ways), are absolutely, undeniably in el oh ve eh with each other), namjoon as the motivated, strict person that want and wants and wants and seokjin the actual fire sign telling the earth sign to CHILL for a second or two.. they just get me lots. minjoon is just. pure love. one of the least physical members and one of the touchiest, the smallest bundle that has his shell perfectly under control and the tallest that has everything but control over his long, slender limbs, don’t they make a nice meet&greet of opposites i love it!

and last but not least: Taeguk ! my sweet summer children, the youngest and most playful, partners in crime! they have your chest aching and heart longing for a soulmate you don’t know yet but want to have by your side already, they’re a refreshing summer breeze when you’re out in the midst of an autumn storm and they just give me that supper fuzzy, warm and very soft feeling inside where i either want to put them to bed and read them a bed time story of be out with them in the middle of a hot summer night, ripping out trees and yelling until it echoes to the moon and back. taehyung is warmth and steadiness when jeongguk is anxious and unsure, he’s an older brother that doesn’t mind playing the younger for a while and jeongguk is obviously the touchiest with taehyung (no surprise as taehyung IS the touchiest himself lol). i think the most fics i read (it’s not many but if i start one that i love i will read 20k in one go) is taeguk just bc it’s rly popular (which is understandable if you ask me?) and many talented ppl fell in love with them! 

shoutout to 2seok & jikook for being underrated in their brother-like, more quiet charms and sugamon for putting up with one another for such a long time so they practically grew on one another, sugakookie where an Intro Big shows an Intro Smol that it’ll be okay being like this in an extroverted idol world AND vmin & namseok for being the typical same age liners where one of the “twins” constantely states “i’m like 2minutes older rESPECT ME YOU LITTLE SHIT!”

bangtan is one family and i love all their friendships/dynamics but those are my faves :’^) in the end nobody stans bts as much as taehyung bts anyways, right? THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME WASTE MY TIME I LOVED THIS

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What is a song that defined a moment/event in your life? Why? What was that moment/event?

Oh my god... this is gonna be a long list. I actually have so many so I’ll put as many as I can think of

My parents divorce - Slipknot - Skin Ticket  This was one of my rougher times? I rly just hated everything My foray into “heavy music” - Breaking Benjamin - Topless This is a really big moment in my life cuz I love metal and heavy music in general and this is what started it all :) Probably the origin of my aspirations to git gud at music (which I am not)

Descent into idol hell (you knew this was coming) - Zurui no Magnetic Today So one day my sis just told me to listen to this song and I was like “alright”. The song had a cool as fuck synth over some distorted guitars and I was like WOOAAAH I NEED MORE then i watched all of the love live anime in like 2 days and now Im here so  thanks sis

If you were a Pokemon gym leader/elite four, what type would you specialize in? Imma be a steel type cuz im cold 

What is your favorite reptile? Why? I like snakes cuz they dont need much maintanence and they’re cute

What anime archetype do you think you’d fit the best? I think I’d be that one kid that just fucks around but is actually kinda smart

Do you have a favorite font? What is it? Why do you like it? OH MAN LEMME TELL YOU ABOUT COMIC NEUE its like comic sans but better

Which post you’ve made yourself on your current URL has received the most notes? When did you make that post? Why did you make it? Oh man I made a snow halation ukelele cover and it was lit (insert fire emoji) I got like 40+ notes? Mostly cuz I annoyed everyone and  bugged them to give me notes xD I made it for a secret santa thing with me old network. I actually thought I was p good friends with the person that I made it for but?? apparently not. Imma make a saint snow cover soon so look out m8

European noodle dishes or Asian noodle dishes? I am biased as I am asian. Hakka mee over spaghetti anyday

What is your favorite flavor of juice? Non sugary

Which brand of ballpoint pen is your favorite? Soz I dont use ballpoint xDD G-2 gel pens are my fav

Have you ever traveled outside your home country? If yes, where have you been? If no, why not? Ive been to so many places that I’ve actually kinda lost count... I know I’m privileged but my most memorable ones so far was going to the US to meet my uncle ( a good 2 weeks of solid fucking around in New York), going to Australia to check out unis with my bro and fam and we had a grand ol time in Canberra n stuff, I went to Taiwan on a school trip and it was cold af which was a good change from hot malaysian weather xDD We fucked around a lot it was a lot of fun and OF COURSE JAPAN mmm japan so much lovelive stuff... I’ve been to Japan twice but the first time I didnt know love live so i was like ???? while my sisters freaked out xD but the second time we were all in idol hell together and it was a blast (plus universal studios harry potter mMMM)

Contemporary of Victorian architecture/interior? Why? I’m not particularly a big fan of contemporary victorian interior design cuz I was forced to research it for 3 months for art xDD but in all seriousness I like a mix of modern style interior design with some victorian influences. 10 facts (??? def not gonna finish this xDD) 1. I play guitar (play is a broad term, more like berate my self for not being good enough) 2. Has a weird music taste - From Progressive metal to idol music to reggae to rnb to contemporary rap Im all over the place sorry not sorry 3. I dont think I’m a particularly interesting person 4. I’m in a constant state of anxiety for not having many friends?? Like 30% of my friends are online and I love em (including em heh PUN (said in the history of japan style fusion jazz vocal chordal thingy)) and 69% (heh) is not even like friends?? just acquaintances while that 1% is like that one close friend that I have but we’re not even that close anyway so I feel very alone :))) 5. I love my siblings very much even if they dont love me back 6. I’m passionate about studying music in the future 7. I have.... black hair?? I can’t think of anymore facts lmao

Its 1 am I gotta sleep I got school tmr

I cant think of any questions sorry xD Do this if you wanna